Ta da ta da ..
ta da ta da da ..
ta ta da da..
da da da da da da ...

Well ..
I really feel 'suay' ..
Even more .. lately.
Whenever it is my shift, there seems to be a flood of pt or many things will happen..
I AM SO FREAKING ------------------------------------------ really TIRED

Haiz .. i don't know what to do anymore ..
Maybe i should just close one eye and pray harder every day ...

南無阿彌陀佛
南無阿彌陀佛
南無阿彌陀佛

deLpH
Catherine Feeny
Mr. Blue lyrics

Mr. Blue,
I told you that I love you
Please believe me

Mr. Blue,
I have to go now, darling
Don't be angry

I know that you're tired
Know that you're sore and sick and sad for some reason
So I leave you with a smile
Kiss you on the cheek
And you will call it treason

That's the way it goes some days
A fever comes at you without a warning
And I can see it in your face
You've been waiting to break since you woke up this morning

Mr. Blue,
Don't hold your head so low
That you can't see the sky

Mr. Blue,
It ain't so long since you were flying high

Mr. Blue,
I told you that I love you
Please believe me

Nice song~
I am tired ...
Sometimes i felt that i am too rash .. i don't think before i act ..
Then when ppl questioned me regarding the issue, I will then think about it and sadly i guess .. i regretted my action.
I am A Big I ..
I feel really silly ..

I just feel really useless ... again.
No matter what i do is ...... wrong.
Wrong ...
Wrong ...
Yet wrong ...

I always believe that God is fair ...
But if what he is giving me is fair ...
Then it must be myself who did lots of bad deeds in my previous life ..

I dun wanna be left behind ...
But who is willing to led me along?
I am really tired ...
To tired to move ...

deLpHine
I always wonder why my parent did not have any arranged marriage for me.
When i was younger, i always fantasied that if only i have a arranged marriage, i would be married off young and wouldn't be so concern of my future.
Cause it is being planned.

Watching those TV drama bout arranged marriage is always like ..
The groom is always your dad's client son or your dad's 'brother' son.
Both parties will not have a choice, cos this is their parents' decision.

Is there Reality to that?
Will there be happiness?
Can feelings really be adapted after a period of time together?
I wondered ~

Guess what?
I heard from my friend that my gd fren is getting married.
A pre-marriage arranged by her family too.
*stunned with mouth open and no words came out*
Though i had already heard this from her way before ..
But this time, it is being fixed.
The date is there, the groom is there ..

I was way stunned and don't know how to react to the news ..
I don't know if this is a good or bad thing.
This is something which i longed for when i am younger ..
But right at that point of time when i heard that, i don't know what to do.
I really couldn't imagine if the person was me.
How will i react?
Can i even protest?

I don't know how my friend reacted to that ..
I am just ... shock i guess..

deLpHine
Hey my dear Cai Xia ...
I miss you ..
Sooooooo much ...
Oh gosh ...
i miss you man ..

I really hope that you are feeling better ..
And be stronger, ok?
Take care, my dear ..

Love,
deLpHine